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Posted by Tosspot on 25 February 2014 - 11:53 AM
Posted by NOwayJOSE on 01 August 2014 - 03:14 PM
I was at the movies yesterday watching Hercules and I walked out of the theater to go to the consession stand to get some popcorn. This little boy about 13 years old walks out at the same time with his father. The little boy obviously had Alopecia. I'm standing behind them in line and I lean over and tell him I lost my hair too. Him and his father looked at me like I was crazy. I tell them but I got it back. The father says well u must have had a HT. I'm like oh no something much better. So I get to talking to them about SMP and i could see the excitement in the little boys eyes. It made me feel like I had given him a gift. I had given him hope! So his father tells me that he'll be booking a consultation asap. If HIS helped me then why not spread the word and help others.
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Posted by NonDescript on 21 September 2016 - 07:04 PM
(HIS is the gold standard in SMP. The Toronto clinic practitioner paints scalps like Michaelangelo. Thanks to VinnyDiesel and The Bald Ego for the reassuring words and helpful tips during the emotional roller coaster. You were right, gentlemen, the issues were "IN" my head, not "ON". Gracias, Señores!)
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Posted by HIS - Ed on 04 December 2015 - 10:28 PM
What should have been a simple piece of business has been turned, by our competitors, into a wholly unjustified assault on the character of our organization. We feel obliged to both clarify the position for clients and readers as well as challenge the accusations, some of which have been libelous, made by the competition.
A decision was taken by the owners, Ian and Ranbir, to make a structural change to the organization of the business. The decision was taken on the advice of professionals on the basis that the company structure that had been serving the business since its establishment as a single clinic in Birmingham required updating. Needless to say, that structure was increasingly inappropriate for the global business that HIS Hair has become… we would hasten to add that we still see ourselves as a relatively small business. We just happen to have enormous distances between our clinics.
Let’s start with a few key facts. A plan was executed that saw us close down the company in its original form in favour of a new company called HIS Global Holdings Ltd. The new company has legally acquired all the assets of the original business, it will be operated using the existing domain at www.hishairclinic.com and under the international brand HIS Hair Clinic. The transparent and robust process was conducted in full accordance with the law and all statutory requirements were met.
Absolutely no customers were affected in any way whatsoever, this includes first year touch ups and any other current or future planned treatments. Just as importantly to us no staff were affected either – we remain the tight-knit family of committed and talented individuals we have always been. The whole business, around the world, carried on precisely as usual, exactly as it had before in every way.
The new structure paves the way for planned future growth, it was one of the key reasons for the change. There will be franchised clinics with staff trained and supported by the HIS team, extending our reach and capabilities at a rate previously unachievable.
It also enables the pursuit of illegal use of our trademarks, including SMP. Historically we have taken a relatively relaxed approach to this matter – But given the scandalous behavior of our competitors during this process we are determined to flex our muscle and assert our rights over our trademarks… We realise that many of them make ridiculous claims, about how many treatments they have performed, about how long they have been in business, even about inventing the procedure themselves. For those in doubt please click here to read a detailed post which both outlines our genuine claims and backs them up with hard evidence.
In closing, we would like to say a few words aimed at our competition. Over the years we have become used to being the target of all manner of dirty tricks, games, and lies. Maybe it goes with the territory when you are the established leader of your industry.
The speed with which information about HIS making these structural changes to our business, and the terrible slant put on it, was shocking. Negative scare stories appeared on their websites as well as in misleading blogs, all aimed at undermining confidence in our business. It is not how we conduct ourselves and we take a dim view – it has left us all the more determined to pursue them through the courts to protect both our trademarks and our reputation.
The important message here is that, following these changes, HIS Hair Clinic is now a stronger company than it has ever been and more determined than ever to ensure we remain the best hair loss company providing SMP in the world.
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Posted by Raymond on 10 January 2016 - 09:39 PM
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Posted by Northpole on 30 September 2015 - 06:07 PM
So by the title of my post you can probably guess the topic here.
4 years ago I took the risk/plunge/chance of getting the treatment.
Since that time, I've changed jobs, been promoted, been through 2 relationships, got two additional degrees and a bunch of other small stuff.
What has stayed current? My physical fitness, confidence and my treatment.
So why am I mentioning this. Well for the first time in a while I was able to sit down and think about the correlation between the treatment and my life successes..........if there is any for that matter.
My conclusion is that there is a correlation. The treatment enabled me to feel more confident about myself. A few months ago I commented that prior to the treatment I was always a confident individual. In other words, I always felt like I got a big hammer. However, with the treatment there was a change, after the treatment I felt as though a had a much bigger hammer...................... stupid but its the truth.
What changed about me? My attitude and willingness to take more risks, both personally and professionally. The fear used to be "shut up bald guy" verses "shut up cuz that's dumb"
With my career, I've been willing to speak up more and voice outside the box thoughts. With my personal life, I was more willing to approach the "hot girl" with greater success because I guess that confidence shines through.
While defending my third Masters, I remember there was a moment where I was asked a question and before answering thought to myself "Whatever, I'm a good looking guy and they will accept my answer". Long behold, as outrageous as my comment was, it was accepted. Was it because of my treatment, not necessarily. But the treatment was the cause of me saying what I did.
So this brief reflection of the past 4 years makes me wonder whether I made the right decision or not.............
WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK?
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Posted by JDawg on 19 February 2015 - 12:15 AM
Honestly this doesn't look good, it's what still is keeping me on the fence.
First off, his treatment wasn't done by HIS. 2nd, personally, i think he went a bit too dark which is why it looks kind of off under the indoor lighting he's at...I gotta tell you, i was at the gym last night for the first time in like 10 years and i felt so comfortable. I kept seeing myself in the mirror and my treatment while yes looked a bit shiny due to sweat and what not, looked really nice! You cant keep putting off treatment forever and thinking it will be perfected one day. I think mentally you need to sit down and be honest with yourself. While this treatment works really well for the most part, at the end of the day, it's an illusion and all you're doing is putting ink on your bald dome. If you think this is going to put hair on your head or you won't have to deal with basic daily maintenance than I don't mean to sound rude but this treatment probably isn't for you. Do you rather have a treatment that looks awesome 90% of the time and sometimes you deal with small bumps depending on lighting or what not, or you rather be a balding man with a horse shoe ALL THE TIME? I sure as hell didn't want option 2 so i went for this treatment. Go light and natural with a bit of a receded look, accept it for what it is, be prepared to shave it everyday or other day, be prepared to use anti shine as you choose, be prepared to moisturize whenever you want/need and just do this for yourself and no one else. I don't tell people i got this treatment but if i was ever called out, i would man up and be proud, proud of myself that i was financially able to pay for the only treatment that would let me be free in rain or shine and give me a better look than i had before...I feel bad for anyone balding who is suffering and doesn't know about this treatment, i feel even more sorry for people who are balding and suffering and know about this treatment, are able to afford it, but still look for perfection in it while wasting so much time when they could have been in that seat already wrapping up 2-3 treatments, looking and feeling much better than they did before treatment!
S - scoring
M - more
P - pussy
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Posted by Stubbletown on 09 April 2015 - 08:13 PM
Just some things I have learned from going thru this process. It might be helpful to others considering SMP or people having the same experiences.
1: It's normal to go very conservative the 1st session. You almost have to not look at it too much, which is really hard to do. Think of it as a template.
2: The lymph nodes behind my ears swelled up after session one. A week later, they are still swollen. I also feel VERY fatigued. I have no idea why. It must be the immune system dealing with a wound?
3: The week following session one is a very long one and can be very emotional. This whole SMP process is emotional, depending on how balding has affected you over the years.
4: Session 2 looks much better than the first.
5: The small scabs and texture from the wounding actually look great for the first few days after the treatment. It adds to the realism. It's very disappointing when they go away and the balding scalp is smooth again.
6: I wish I was warned a little bit more about how difficult it will be in my case to maintain the 2D illusion in the crown/horseshoe area. The hair on the back of my head is very thick, dark and dense. Any more than 24 hours of growth and I've got big texture differences. I'm def going to need a 3rd session. Even then, the horseshoe area will be difficult to maintain (but I trust my practicioner 100% to strike the best balance on session 3) I'm not going to want anyone standing close behind me in line at a grocery store.
7: If you do share this SMP experience with a partner, wife or girlfriend, it is advisable to not wear them out with your worries about how it looks. Sure, get feedback from them, but don't obsess. Practice self control.
8: SMP looks unbelievably realistic from 3-10 feet away in medium to low lighting. Don't stare at it in the bathroom mirror under harsh light bulbs from 8 inches away-- it's not going to look good under those circumstances.
9: Think of this treatment as more of a hack than a cure. I know that's a very simple idea, but the reality of that settles in once you have the treatment.
10: If you decide to only tell a select few about this, choose them wisely. Friendships and family can be complicated -- and real, true trust is elusive.
11: Avoid side fills if you can. (I didn't have them done)
12: for me, it was important to have a receded look, as if I was a man who has just started to bald and decided to shave his head. My practitioner did a great job at acheiving this.
13: I have always had the sides and back of my hair grown out and almost always wear a hat. Everyone around me is used to that. But now weraing a hat with completely shaved head makes me look older, more tired, and severe. It's a tradeoff. But it's better to have the treatment and not have that constant worry of your hat coming off. My goal is to not wear hats in a few weeks. But that's just hard to imagine right now.
14: Overall I'm very happy with the treatment, but for now I'm just being realistic and cautious. Despite being really impressive, this is only a 2D illusion of hair and has it's limitations-- depending on the individual. I am just going to have to wait and see how this settles over the next few weeks. It's going to be a long road.
15: My practitioner is very experienced and talented, albeit a bit rushed. My suggestion to HIS would be to not overload the practitioners' schedules. They need to be happy, healthy and relaxed for this kind of work. It cannot be easy to concentrate on making tens of thousands of dots for hours on end while maintaining best practices.
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Posted by Hairperfect on 09 April 2015 - 02:43 PM
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Posted by JuJu on 11 June 2014 - 11:35 PM
When: Tomorrow am
Why: Androgenic hair loss secondary to medications in my 20's. That along with some traction alopecia from attempts to camouflage. I'm an advanced Ludwig. Women use the Ludwig stages, versus Norwood for the guys.
Trials: What you guys called systems and units, we call wigs, weaves, extensions, tracks, glue in's, sew in's, braids, scarves, hats
Rationale: 1) attempt to regain the appearance of full coverage. I want a more professional look when I don't wear wigs instead of "patchy alopecia head" 2)I live in Texas, it gets fricking hot. Systems can be torturous . I'm a bit 3) tired of little kids asking if I have cancer and finally 4)it seems like a great option and alternative
Challenges: 1) I hope I don't look like i have shoe polish or a tattoo on my head (my hubby's fear) But wait honey, I WILL have a tattoo on my head! Unlike many of the guys on the forum, I'm out. EVERYONE knows that I have alopecia and most have actually seen me au natural. I go between hair, the way women change shoes. I have TONS of hair. So by doing this, what does that say? Does it mean that I'm insecure? I don't think so. What if it comes out weird? Hell, that will definitely undermine, the "love yourself mantra" I try to live. Anyway, enough on that... The other challenge is 2) A hairline that looks feminine. Luckily many AA women wear bald fades, but the goal is for me to still convey femininity and workplace professionalism. Luckily the rest of me, will never be mistaken as a male. I just want the SMP rock.
I have a story, but this will do for now.
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Posted by HatingHats on 13 April 2014 - 05:40 PM
probably won't.. I am not insecure enough to pay 4 grand to have someone paint dots on my head. seriously...............
I am insecure enough to pay 4 grand and feel better about myself. If you are one of those lucky gents who has no hair loss as you age or you sincerely dont mind to let your belly hang low and your balding scalp show as you age, more power to you. Some gents really dont give a shit if it all hangs out. But many of the rest of us would like to, if we can in a realistic manner and the price is not too high, try to age gracefully and keep our hair if possible. For some gents too, that began losing hair as teens, it is more than just simple vanity and can actually cause large scale psychological stress and loss of confidence (and a decrease in quality of life). If $4000 helps them to return to a normal life and better fulfill their purpose, who are you to bitch about how someone spends their private cash?
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Posted by PermanentVacation on 10 November 2016 - 03:21 PM
I had smp in the summer 2014. I read an article in a men's magazine. Checked out the website and then made an appointment. Looking back I should have maybe been more cautious, but it all seemed legit!
I had a bill Murray in ghostbusters hairline, I fretted my whole 20's over my hair.
Not obsessively but I knew one day I'd have to shave my head. It was always a looming thought.
I have always been the sort of person that could for instance buy a car from a picture.
Don't get my wrong I'm super fussy but I just had an instinct that worked for me
I had my treatment in Birmingham. 2 treatments with a top up.
I'm not sure if I was scared I'd say more excited that this might actually work.
It did !!and I can say it's the best thing I have done for me!
Over time when your scalp calms etc and you get used to it you forget about it.
In 2 or more years only 2 people have been suspicious! Close friends never noticed
My wife loves it... it has taken 10 years of me mentally. At the gym a few weeks ago smp was brought up in conversation and 3 guys who had looked into it never thought anything of my hairline
It shines sometimes if iv just shaved it but so what! it dulls after an hour.
I wet Shave every 2 days and only shave in one direction front to back and down at the sides with maybe a run over here and there.
Il maybe book an appointment for a check this year but in 2 years it has only got better.
I can't say enough about his hair. If I was giving any advice I'd say don't make it a perfect hairline.
Imperfect makes it more real. And don't over think. I still can't believe it sometimes lol
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Posted by HatingHats on 11 August 2015 - 12:11 AM
Horseshoe, the pigments are held in the collagen micro-forest of the second layer of your skin (the dermal layer). Image trying to hold some mayonnaise in a cross weaved salad bowl made out of thatching. At first, the salad bowl will hold a big lump of mayonnaise just fine. However, as time passes, the mayonnaise can leak out a bit from the bottom as Earth's natural gravitational field presses down on the mayonnaise (equal to 9.81 m/s^2) and because the mayonnaise degrades a little bit. (its viscosity changes as the UV radiation from the sun changes its chemical structure) The same is true of the pigment being held in a client's collagen micro-forest, and normally, it would leak out into surrounding tissue and bleed out, so to speak. However, the reason this does not happen is that your immune system constantly removes particles that float free from the collagen microforest. (and from there are removed to the lymph nodes) Therefore, with regard to SMP, there is almost no "bleeding". There is fading, where a more densely packed area over time degrades due to immune response or UV radiation, but there is not bleeding or smearing.
Your next question is probably, "Then why do regular tattoos seem to bleed and merge after many years?" The answer to that is that regular tattoo inks are exactly that, ...inks. (they are not monomeric pigments) They are made of the pigment molecules but are usually combined with binders, carriers or additives. When that tattoo ink is subjected to the UV radiation of the sun for many years and Earth's standard gravitational field, the various components' are separated or their covalent bonds are broken and they break down and "bleed out", but at separate rates, which show as a stain bleeding together, or as a smearing. All the while, the immune system is working to remove this degradation. In comparison, the HIS pigment is a monomeric structure that does not break down any further, which is why you do not see a bleeding or smearing. The only thing you see with HIS is fading.
Then, your next question is likely to be, "Will the individual dots eventually fade away?" The answer is yes. If given enough time, the dots will fade down until they are no longer distinct dots (at least from an observer's point of view). And, that is the exact reason why all clients, at some point in the future will need an occasional touch-up. It is so new sharp dots can be laid down which keep the appearance ultra-realistic. For some, this might be every four years, but for another, it might be once every eight years. (I would say the average is about once every five years) I hope this helps.
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Posted by Conhair on 27 February 2015 - 12:59 AM
**Correction, Almost Four Years On**
It's nearly been four years since my first treatment so thought I would share some of my experiences since having the treatment done. The first thing I would like to say is I do not regret getting this treatment done whatsoever.
The main reason I got this treatment done was because I was receding at the temples and knew it would get worse; therefore, I took the plunge. I was only 22 when I received the treatment, and now at nearly 26, I have spent a large part of my twenties bald. Many of my friends and people the same age are clinging to the hair they have left, and few have taken the plunge and shaved it. I will now take this opportunity to answer some questions.
Has having the treatment changed the way the opposite sex have looked at me?
It is hard to say, because despite having SMP, I have never really been short of female attention. The only time I really did wish I had hair was when I went to Magaluf in 2014, and the place was filled with Terminators with great tans and tremendous heads of hair. In all fairness, I felt I probably would have looked better over there if I had hair but maybe that's just my own insecurities.
Have I told many people about the treatment?
I have told only a select number of people. My mum, brother, some close friends, my ex girlfriend (when we were together I got the treatment done) and my current girlfriend. One thing I will say is be very careful about this if you care about people knowing. I was somewhat betrayed by a friend who told some people about me having the treatment which resulted in me losing that friend. Relationships will fall apart, and information about yourself and the treatment is something you can never take back, so be cautious and don't piss off an ex girlfriend.
Have I ever been called out on the treatment?
I can honestly say I have never been called out on the treatment. It has even been to the extent where someone brought up the fact they saw a head tattoo being featured on a show the previous night and I still wasn't called out. I know in some situations this could be a sly way of trying to gauge a reaction if someone had a suspicion; however, this person genuinely did not know. All I could do was act amazed that there was such a concept, and the conversation eventually moved on. Having said that, there have been a few comments over the years which have come in the form of "your hair looks painted/drawn on" but those were by no means comments that were aimed at the fact that I have a tattoo on my head but merely observations. I merely laughed them off.
Any general comments on the treatment?
I have had many compliments over the years from people that do not know I have had this done. I have had comments like "you have a movie star's hairline", and some people act with genuine curiosity as to why I shave my head at all which is the most common question. To anyone contemplating getting this done, be prepared for this. Due to having had a number of jobs since the treatment, usually my work colleagues will wait a while to get to know me before asking the inevitable "why do you shave your head?" question. Over the years I've got so used to answering this question and I usually say that it's because I like it. I've even been told by a couple of people to grow my hair so they can see what I look like. The frequent asking about why I shave my head can be annoying; however, this really is a testament to the treatment itself. If I was clearly bald with no sign of hair, then I can imagine these questions would not be asked due to the obvious. Therefore, it really is a positive to how natural and untraceable the treatment is.
Have I bumped into anyone who has had the treatment?
I bumped into one person in a Glasgow nightclub who had the treatment done and his looked perfect. We spotted each other instantly and it was such a funny experience because we both knew that we had the treatment and had a laugh about it. I have also spotted a few people in the street over the years and have been able to tell but only because I've been so used to looking at my own head.
This is a great treatment, and I cannot speak any more highly of it. Some advice I will give is try and go for as natural a hairline (and side profiles) as possible. I did not need any treatment on my side profiles; therefore, it is really only my hairline and halfway up my head that has the treatment. By being as natural as possible, there will be less of a chance of being called out. And also, the shaving is a pain at times - especially when you're tired but it beats the alternative.
Any questions, then ask away.
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Posted by Fatstrat1991 on 31 August 2014 - 09:52 AM
I haven't had any SMP done, yet I can fully and highly recommend this company to anyone searching for an answer to their hair loss just based on research and results of this forum. A huge thanks to HIS and their clients, keep up the amazing work.
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Posted by JuJu on 20 June 2014 - 12:44 AM
Second session. Great time with Matt and Jonathon. Matt was in the office briefly for admin tasks. Lots of laughter, though the discomfort was notably greater. I strongly recommend an analgesic.I'm very pleased with the results. Went darker and dropped the hairline .25 inch. More than likely I will do the third session, but not for a few months. Don't ask me what colors. I know wig colors. which apparently tickled Jonathon. Oh and as women only know shower shaving, electrolysis and waxing unless it involves eyebrows which then can include threading or chin hairs, which then broadens to include plucking....I will be maintaining the look via a wet shave. Overall, it has been easy breezy. I feel confident. The alopecia is covered. I still look like a female. Though not a common look for females, it does present as professional.
Last night while in the elevator, a guy asked to feel my hair. I paused...long...Then he said a few years ago he had touched another woman's head but without permission and learned he should ask. I wanted to say no, but I was also calculating how long I'd be stuck on the elevator if I said no or yes. (Lol). My pause continued. He awkwardly smiled then added he was from Hawaii....as if that made it ok. He was in his late 40s and not unattractive. Shamefully I said yes rather than risk upsetting the potential crazy. What was the lesser? God, I wish there video of my reaction. .
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Posted by adenlager on 13 May 2014 - 09:58 PM
Hi everyone! Just a quick update. It's been almost 2 months since my second treatment and I'm a very satisfied customer! The initial fading blended beautifully with my existing hair. Wet shaving is perfect! Now my Andis T is for shaping up the goatee! Honestly, I'm debating about the 3rd session if I even need one! Maybe after summer I'll consider the last session, but for now,,,I'm good!
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Posted by Tosspot on 02 April 2014 - 01:08 AM
Tell her you'll only grow your hair out if she gets her tits enlarged.
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Posted by KDtoNY on 07 March 2014 - 11:58 PM
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Posted by Happyclient on 14 January 2014 - 05:41 PM
I felt the need to sign up to this forum to express to you all how utterly brilliant this treatment is. I am absolutely over the moon with it. It is changing my life.
My problems with hair loss dates back to when I was about 16. I started thinning on top and that coupled with already fine hair there was no way out. I am mid 20's now.
I will share how I have felt over the years and how I have dealt with baldness. I was in denial, clear denial. I wore a fringe, put all sorts of products in there to try and thicken it and was still trying to convince myself "I just have a high hairline", "My mum has the same hairline".
I used to stand in front of a mirror combing it in every conceivable way, analysing it from every possible angle. I couldn't leave the mirror until I had convinced myself I wasn't balding. Spending hours most days gazing at it and getting rushes of dread every time I saw a flash of my crown. Then putting more product in it whilst squinting to see if the thin patch was just a trick of the light. If it wasn't, I wouldn't be able to function for weeks staying locked in my house honestly shaking and not being able to carry out a single normal thought that wasn't related to my hairloss. Only until the denial crept back in was I able to continue on with life.
Every single person I saw on TV I was analysing their hairline and giving them a norwood rating. I would rush back and forth to the bathroom maybe 20 times a day for long periods of time to study and comb my hair until it was "just so". I could not function until it was "just so" Doubts would subsequently come creeping back in to my mind that would send me straight up to the bathroom again.
I would go through stages of thinking different areas of my hair was thinning and every balding man I saw had that exact same thin part and I would obsess for probably if I am honest 90% of the day on it. I'd say at one point of my life I spent roughly 90% of the time I was awake thinking about my hairline. I failed university because I could not concentrate on anything that wasn't my own obsessive thoughts. I could not control them and was fully aware of how irrational they were. The only way I could get any rest bite was by starting at my hairline for long enough to decide to myself; "I'm not losing my hair, it's fine", only to see a bald man on TV an hour later and then to go instantly go back to the mirror.
Danny (cheekychops) hit home for me when he mentioned that he could not go to his childs parents evening until he had put topik in his hair and got it to look right. I also regularly experienced this. I have been late for the majority of stuff I have ever attended due to not being able to tear myself from the mirror. For me i felt glued to it. I could not walk away it was a complete impossibility even if I was already late. In the reflection I could only see my hair, the rest of the room was just a blur of adrenaline usually. This caused me to miss a great deal of life experiences including uni due to not being able to attend lectures.
With me, until I had convinced myself I was not losing my hair was the only time I could enjoy stuff. I could not play Xbox, I could not watch films, I could not go out until I had obsessively checked and and combed my hair to get it to look "right", I would walk out of the bathroom just to walk straight back in again. In the back of my mind I originally believed this was due to "not fitting in with the actors" and my receding hairline made me "not worthy" to enjoy the things I love most because I am balding and I was a level below everyone else. Only recently have I come to understand that I could not function in anyway or do anything else unless I had fed my addiction and that was looking at my hair.
I remember pulling my hair back with a comb and seeing the thinning patches at the corners of my hairline for the first time and I just sort of blacked out the bathroom floor. The next two weeks were just a blur of shaking and repetitive thoughts.
I then (somehow) managed to reign my thoughts in, I went back to the denial stage and decided to go on finasteride (whilst telling myself I wouldn't need it because I wasn't balding anyway). I also made myself sign a contract that I had written telling myself that if I looked at my hairline at all in one year, I would "surrender my soul to satan", You're probably laughing right now, I know this sounds ridiculous and is rather funny looking back on it but it was the only thing that helped, I don't even believe in satan I just needed something to stop me from experiencing that moment again.
This actually worked incredibly and I went a whole year without pulling back my hairline, I was still studying my hair for large portions of the day in the mirror however but it definitely took the edge off. I'm not going to lie the finasteride worked wonders. I grew back a large portion of my hair. The scrutiny of my hair was becoming less and less and one day (after a year obviously) I pulled back to look at my hairline and to my delight the thinning areas had in filled in. Admittedly I was stood far back from the mirror and was squinting and in reality it probably hadn't, however I was happy in my delusion for the time being. I came off the propecia after around 2 years after I had finally convinced myself I was "not losing my hair" and had a "mature hairline" (lol). I experienced some side effects with the drug and do not recommend people use it looking back.
As expected my hair thinned again within a year and whilst I was still in denial I and using copious amount of hairspray to fix it in place, I was still having pretty intense episodes over it. I used to look at balding men and think "how can you be happy". I was totally aware my brain was wired differently but could not fathom in any way how people could accept it. Pathetic, I know. The majority of my mates know I have a problem and were extremely careful in how they dealt with me.
My hair has looked ridiculous for the past 8 years; just a blob of hairspray and thickening powder. I looked utterly stupid and was completely aware that people thought it was bizarre. However I did not care. All I cared about was convincing myself (and others slightly) I was not balding. It did not matter how ridiculously I had styled or how much crap I had poured on top. It was obvious I was trying to cover my baldness and deep down I probably knew that. However as usual I was happy in my delusion.
Medication helped a bit. It didn't help me rationalise, I was already completely rational about my situation. I just couldn't control the compulsions and the need to feed them. I would never have CBT because I could never had admitted the shame I was feeling. The shame of how I felt outsiders would view my issue. The fear of being told by a therapist that I actually was balding and I had to get over it. I knew deep down that admitting I was balding would be the first step but I just couldn't do it. I couldn't let go. I was prepared to suffer for it.
Excuse this. I have gone in far to much detail than I intended. This is the first time I have spoken about it properly. Whilst I assume the vast majority of you guys coped a whole lot better than me I feel the need to express how I felt to others who have perhaps felt the same.
In no way am I suggesting that SMP is the solution to people with my condition but for me it has been. I genuinely, genuinely mean that. Whilst I still deal with compulsive issues (unrelated to hair loss) regularly I am coping for the first time in 8 years.
Once the treatment has settled down it is honestly absolutely stunning and far exceeded my expectations. bizarrely I love the mirror now it reminds me of what I have left behind. Even I cannot pick a fault with the treatment.
I thank you Ian and #### you have changed my life and dragged me out from where I was.
I have finally said good bye to baldness. Writing this has been a weight of my mind. I am now trying my absolute best to live life to the full and make up for all the lost time I have spend in front of mirrors.
If this treatment can change me it can certainly change you.
I thank you for reading.
- Damien, slap head 190, SebDerm and 6 others like this